its the same feeling

the feeling that you cant ignore 

its the same feeling that you have no idea why you have them

its the same feeling that you cant control

its addictive

its unsettling

its giddy

its like a drug

its only there if you're open to it

 open to vulnerability

open to the idea of potentially being stabbed

and open to the idea of falling

some might be confused

some might just like the idea

and some might just be temporary

and those people eventually realize its just a placebo

what is real and what is not?

ask yourself

eventually you'll know

for me

its just the beginning

=)